बस इतना सा ही कहती हूँ

हम उखड़े उखड़े बैठे थे
जाने किसकी आवाज़ सुनी
हल्का सा डर, हलकी सी ख़ुशी
यूं दिल में आके बैठ गया
कौन है वो, है क्यों आया
किसके आने से हम, अब यूं इतने बेचैन हुए
हम चौंक गए, हैरान हुए
आवाज़ बहुत ही मीठी थी,
जाने क्यों दिल तक उसने
इक सीधी रेखा खींची थी
शायद वो मेरी माँ होंगी
जिनके क़दमों कि आहट ने हमको ये बतलाया है
"तू ना हो दुःखी मेरी बेटी
हम आज तुझे ये कहते हैं
तेरे ये जो आँसू हैं मेरी आखों से बहते हैं
तेरे हर सुख में ही तो हमने अमृत फल को पाया है"
माँ तेरे इन शब्दों ने जीवन को हर पल सजाया है
तू जहाँ कहीँ भी रहती है, दिल के नजदीक ही होती है
अक्सर मैं इश्वर के घर जाकर पूछा करती हूँ
क्यों दिया तुम्हे ऐसा दिल
जो सब कुछ जाना करता है
मैं आह यहाँ पे भरती हूँ,
तुम दौडी दौडी आती हो
आकर के मेरे कानों में मीठा सा गीत सुनाती हो
हम कृतज्ञ हैं तेरी ममता के,
तेरे तो हम करज़ाई हैं
पर अपनी इस माँ को क्या मैं दूं
बस इतना सा ही कहती हूँ
तुझको तो हर पल याद करूं
बस तेरे लिए फरियाद करूं!
Love you mom!

Java - making me crazy

Since a long time, I’m planning to appear for SCJP exam. Finally I have determined to appear for it soon. Though I like java a lot, but there are some things which make me think that it is a funny language! It’s driving me crazy. Don’t you believe me? See this:

1. Any local variable but be initialized before use, but if the local variable is an array the compiler won’t complain. Only declaring and constructing the array will do.
2. Multiple inheritance is not allowed in java but interface classes can extend more than one interface classes. They are VIPs :)
3. Interface variables are implicitly but static and final but compiler will be angry if we make the interface methods as static or final.
4. Everyone who has learnt java knows when we’ll try to divide an integer by 0, it will result in an ArithmeticException but dividing a floating point number by a zero will not result in an ArithmeticException. Isn’t it strange!
5. We can do & and operations on integers as well as Booleans but we can do && and only on Boolean operands.
6. We can have multiple initialization and iteration statements in for loop but there can be only one test condition.Why so? They could have used multiple tests also
   Constructors should not have a return type but its legal to have a method with the same name as that of class with a return type. SO what do I do if I see a method with a return type – is it an errored constructor or a legal method?
7. Default constructor is always a non-arg constructor but you won’t get it if you have typed in a constructor with arguments. Why this injustice to the programmer?
   
   These are just a few things that I wrote. I’m still in the mid of my course. If some big java fan happens to read this, please don’t beat me for writing this.

'Bench' Again

It was Apr 2006, I was put on bench for the first time in my organization. Again in April 2007, I have been put on bench. This time, it is for my transfer to Chandigarh, probably for my own good. I’m not sure. When I wanted to go, they didn’t send me, now I felt like working here, now they want to send me! I wanted to work for some good development project here, so I had refused for my transfer lately but it seems I’m destined to go now.
It was yesterday I was thinking that all my friends are moving from Bangalore, why did I choose to be here? Today morning when I came to office swiped in my id card to open the door, the door didn’t open. That’s how I got to know that they have revoked my door access also. It was shock to me! Went to meet my PM and got the news that I have been put on bench as my transfer in progress. Now I have decided to take life as it comes. I have decided to take up the java certification very soon though I’m planning to give it from the past 6 months God give me the courage to appear for it this time :)

Last team meeting

Today we are having the last meeting in my current project. Never liked to work for this project as the work was not of my interest but for every release we all used to stay till late to give the best results. And our efforts did work and the team got so many recognitions, awards and best ever client feedbacks. Don't know why I'm feeling a bit heavy at heart. I'm not so close to anyone but there is something which has knit the team closely. Hope to fet such wonderful team in every project I work! Life moves on and good that the project ended. Some thing good is waiting for me.