Trust

Probably all of us use this word often while talking to friends, while writing testimonials, while praising others. But I doubt I really know the meaning! I searched for its meaning on internet and got so many definitions. Probably a too complicated thing! I don’t understand why people make relationships if they don’t trust each other. Oh I again used the word! Here it means – “The sense that things are fine; that nothing can disrupt the bond between you and the other”. The other day my friend’s boy-friend who is a very loving and caring guy got angry with her because he saw her talking to some guy in her office campus. I thought Love is above all these things! I concluded where there is love; there is a fear of losing it. Even Lords are not exception to this. Lord Rama doubted Sita after her release from Ravana’s capture. Today two of my friends doubted me to have told their secrets to people. Although the thing was told quite casually and lightly, yet it touched my heart. I felt that they should not have told me anything if they don't trust me. Here trust means – “Sharing your inner feelings and thoughts with others with the belief that they will not spread them indiscriminately”. But before I could say anything to them I introspected –“Haven’t I doubted people who I love the most at times?” The answer was yes – with so many incidents coming to my mind. Probably its human nature to be doubtful! Is there anything called blind trust? I’m not sure!

At home!

It’s been 3 nights and 2 days at home now! The break is good and I’m relaxing the most. Don’t even feel like going back to work. No tensions about the release at office today :) My team mates would have managed I know. Everyday I get up around the same time as mom and dad have to go to their work. By that time mom is already done with her cooking but there are a few instructions for me specially not to use the old lighter, not to close the windows when the gas geyser is on, not to open the door to strangers etc. as if I’m a 5 yr old girl staying at home. To add to it my mom will call up from office to check if I’m fine. After saying bye to them, I have my breakfast, listen to songs, watch tv, surf Internet and watch my dog – Jackie’s activities. Jackie is too eager to hold everyone. I always feel he wants to say something when I go near him. He says in his own language which I don’t understand but I wish I could. At least I would have got some one to talk to till my parents return home. Anyway by the time I'm done all those activities, its 2'o clock and I see Jaackie barking loudly to see his masters back.
It’s so good to sit under the sun in this weather. While I sit under the sun, so many thoughts come to my mind. Lots of things to think now - what next in life? Time to make so many decisions soon.
I have started with a book of R.K Narayan – “Salt & sawdust”. It’s a collection of stories and table-talk.
Only 3 more nights at home now :(

Back to my college

After a long time, I'm back to my college where I have spent four wonderful years. Again I'm using our old lan, using Internet seeing that cyberoam http client screen, seeing the faces of our teachers.Its so good to be in college again though there is a difference now. I'm no more a student, I'm have come as a visitor with my sister who's a teacher here :)
Not many things have changed. Same old guards, same teachers, same tuck shop, same old person handling the tuck shop, almost the same staff in the mess.
All those memories are refreshed!

Mahashweta -a book review

Being in an organization headed by Mr. Narayan Murthy, I have heard the story of the making of this organization hundreds of times. This is how I got to know that Mrs. Murthy has sacrificed and contributed a lot during the initial few years of this company. Anyway, I’m not going to write about or this organization here but I’ll be writing about a book of Mrs. Sudha Murthy that deeply touched me and has inspired me to read more of her books. This book is ‘Mahashweta’. It’s a touching story of a courageous girl, Anupama, who suffers from leukoderma just after her marriage. How the hypocritical society, insensitive in-laws and husband obsessed with beauty treat her! Above all, her husband is a doctor who knows it very well that leukoderma is a harmless disease in which a person suffers from a deficiency in the pigmentation of skin. The writer has portrayed various aspects of Indian society – arranged marriages, dominating mother in-law, helpful friends, hypocrite relatives, a cursing stepmother, and worried parents of a young Indian girl.I would recommend everyone to read this novel once especially those who are planning to tie the nuptial knot in the coming years. Marriage is a commitment for a lifetime. Make this commitment only if you are prepared to honour it. Hey did I tell you why the name of the novel is Mahashweta. It is a dram in which Anupama plays the lead role and seeing that a rich and handsome doctor falls in love with her. Read the book to know the whole story :)

क्यों

इस दिल को हर पल समझाते थे हम
तेरे हिस्से में आने हैं गम ही गम
क्यों उससे तू मुंह मोड नहीं लेता
क्यों उससे तू ये रिश्ता तोड नहीं लेता

तू क्यों खुश होता है उसकी खुशी में
तू क्यों यूं रोता है उसके दुखों में
क्यों वो इक इंसान तुझे हंसा सकता है
रुला सकता है, मना सकता है़।

वो-वो नहीं जिसे तेरा होना है
ईश्वर ने तेरे लिये किसी और को चुना है
जवाब मिला - बहुत बडी बडी बातें सुना रही हो
जो खुद ना समझी वो दिल को समझा रही हो?

Sisters

We grew up together, in that lovely small city of udhampur where almost everyone knows each other. I remember that small campus having 20 residences where we used to stay, play and enjoy with friends. Everyone in the school knew us. Us refers to me and my sister. Jasmine and her “Khushboo”- we are so very incomplete without each other. Almost after one year of her marriage I’m missing her so much. She is busy with her new world. All her activities revolve around her new relatives. She is the one who used to guide me, pamper me and listen to my stupid talks. Being an engineer, she guided me a lot during my engineering also, though we were not staying together at her time. But she was there to advice about the people in college, about hostel life, about engineering subjects and all our college stuff. Oh I can’t believe I’m praising her :) I do remember the times when she used to pull my leg. I remember one day I was telling some joke to her and my Mom. After the joke, she said “Mom please laugh, otherwise she’ll tell it again”. Even after doing post graduation in engineering, she has chosen to be a teacher though I feel she could have been a good manager. This is because of her managerial skills; I remember how tactfully she managed to make me work for her sometimes.It was fun. Though she is five years elder to me, there is s special bond between us which i feel will always be there. Our lives have changed now; she has her household chores and office work but still i know how much she cares for me.I sometimes wonder why two sisters can’t live together throughout their lives? Miss you sis but very happy for you. Hope this “Deepak” (my brother-in-law) always enlightens your life with lots of joy and happiness!